Thought of Today 07: How Fast We Go - How Far We Can

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The past few weeks have been hell. And I wish I was exaggerating.

I really thought I was good at time management considering I have been a student athlete my whole life while juggling other extra curricular activities like journalism, student leader related ones and many more (Call me Pabibo of the decade). But boy was I wrong!

And college shoved that right to my face.

This blog is proof. I haven’t posted one in a month or two. I’d be lucky if I even got more than 4 hours of sleep in a day, I reek of caffeine and really, here’s a little secret between you and I - the other day, I forgot to shower!

And here comes the crazy part. I’m only half way through the semester!

And of course as physically draining it is, it’s also emotionally exhausting trying to collect myself and push through day with the little amount of energy I have.

But I’ve come to a little conclusion last night while I was working on a plate past midnight.

I was putting too much pressure on myself.

I had a long time to prepare for worst case scenarios. I knew I was going to have a lot of sleepless nights, coffee intakes, less time for other things but I was never prepared for the emotional roller coaster that would come with it.

And I realized that the reason why I wasn’t enjoying what I was doing is because I was caught up comparing myself to other people. I felt bothered by the fact that they were doing so well when I wasn’t. I kept beating myself up for not doing enough - for not being enough.

I felt like it was unfair that they weren’t have it as hard as I was when in reality, I don’t know that. And why would I want that?

So a little thought I wanted to share today is, RUN AT YOUR OWN PACE.

Keep your eyes forward. The journey is never a race but a marathon and as the wise ones always say, it’s not about how fast we go but how far we can.

All the energy I could have been using to improve what I am doing is wasted on pointlessly comparing myself to other people.

Would that help me do better? No.

Would that give me more time? No.

So now here I am at 6am in the morning, with only 3 hours of sleep, in front of my drafting table, giving myself a little pep talk, internally screaming- I GOT THIS - WE GOT THIS!

One thing at a time.

One step at a time.

A little step forward is still a step toward the goal.

No one ever starts out great but you have to start to become one. It’s going to be hard. It’s going to be tiring. It’s going to be one hell of a ride.

But it’s one that will be worth it.

Here’s to all our dreams!

If they aren’t scaring you, they aren’t big enough.

Love, Yna.